ARGH, just when I am ready to post this on Gaia WIP Forums, the whole site crashes!! D: I'm posting it here because I WANT FEEDBACK, please do not disappoint me LJ friends! XP

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This is a promotional film about my hometown, Trois-Rivières :D ( if you start watching at 1:42 min, this is exactly as aired on TV right now ^^ ) "Cultural Capital of Canada"................................ lol Made to boost tourism for the city's 375th anniversary, I suppose. I don't live there anymore D': I kinda miss my hometown, it was nice there... Bigger than Victoriaville. Not that bigger is better, but you know... it's my hometown, it's what I'm used to *shrugs* :|

I love the music they used, I wonder who did it. Hey, I'll email the city about it *genius* :D

I don't think I've mentionned it here: I back to my pre-pregnancy weight!! :) And I've been eating large quantities and a lot of dessert all along... lol Yay~ I would really like to lose the extra 5-6 kg I put on since I started working at St-Jérôme... I'm gonna work toward that. Plan of action: none yet, since I'm still breastfeeding... I *could* be more active... but go figure, I don't feel like it LMAO Controlling my food intake is much easier. Or so I like to think :P

I've been working on a better version of this lately. I've drawn my very first armour! I've always been afraid of drawing metallic things like armours and mechas... maybe it was just a lack of motivation. That dream got me SO MOTIVATED, you have no idea! The dream was just too detailed visually to let it pass...

Speaking of dreams... I've had weird dreams last night. I dreamt of a high school friend I haven't spoken with in years. In my whole life, I think I've dreamt of only 2 high school friends. That one, and the one I'm not in good term with anymore. I don't know why I keep dreaming of her, maybe I like her better than the others? XD I've also dreamt I got a house somewhere else... on a passing street corner XD And I dreamt of Hisoka too ♥ It was a weird "we have to survive the end of the world" kinda dream... We had to jump as high as we could in order to survive a huge blow that hit the surface of the Earth... Everything was white and blue, there was the blow (white dust/vaporous fog from the explosion), and the blue, very blue sky... there was nothing else... everyone jumped, and with the force of the explosion, we were pushed/thrown into the stratosphere! At that point (and only at that point), I started to worry. Worry that there may not be enough oxygen to breath normally, lol. But then we fell back (more like landed) on the ground and everything was a mess, there was stuff (like... cars and houses and trees and everything that had been caught into the blow) falling back on the ground too. I remember thinking "hm, well there are gonna be some more casualties, for sure", people were gonna be crushed by the falling things... ^^; But a lot of people were fine, it was like everyone was a superhero XD Or the blow by itself wasn't terrifying or meant to hurt us... Overall, it was a really fun dream, and Hisoka was of such good company X3 ♥

Finished. My current avatar on Gaia. Wasted 2 hours shading semi soft style to finally realize that it looked like crap... Cell style is the most efficient way to shade as far as I'm concerned x_x

That girl on Gaia made me doubt... I actually borrowed pictures from a human photo reference website and verified body proportions o_o

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I was right all along, HAHAHA. Now I feel truly at ease. She's way off with her 5 heads tall and I wish I could rub her nose in it!! :P

I actually recall reading --several years ago-- that a normal/average person is 6½ heads tall... and that some people are 7 heads tall, and the ancient Greek civilization sculpted gods and heroes with 8 heads tall body proportions. I guess I should be aiming for 6½ heads tall rather than 7, but long legs look so gracious... :B I don't even have to measure at all anymore, I draw exactly (or near) 7 heads tall using nothing but my intuition!

Oh my goooooooooooooooosh..............!!!!!!!!! Now I got a PM from the girl who thinks I should draw bigger heads and bigger chins O_o;

My thread

Her PM:

Please, I hope no heard feelings will spark between us, because I don't like to make enemies, especially with fellow artists. I did not mean to be rude, and I'm sure you did not either, I just simply pointed out my opinion since you asked, and you of course have a right not to utilize it. I was taken aback at your defensive comment, but I know you probably did not mean anything by it. It's just always so hard to tell over the internet, which is why I want to make sure you do not hold a grudge against me. I thought your art was quite lovely, and I'm sorry if that didn't come across. However, I have learned that giving others cookies and cream responses instead of the critique they want as well doesn't get them anywhere, so I try to pick out every 'flaw' (for the lack of a better word) I can possibly see, just to help with an outsider's opinion. But some people are different and see their art in their own eyes, and I understand that. While I'm not apologizing for my opinion because no one should have to apologize for their own thoughts, please do accept my apologies if I offended you in any way.

Again, my intent was not to hurt your ego or to insult your talent.


!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!!

Like, first of all, I did not go "defensive", I was just trying to explain to her that she was wrong with her 5 heads tall theory. I cannot stand falsity. By no mean did I feel offended or hurt in my ego and I am not looking for praise, I WANT flaws pointed out (like the high boobs, the weird curvy forearms/wrists which no one even brought up yet, etc.), I have had drawings made better by telling me the nose was off centre before, I'm all ready to accept that, as stupid the flaw may be, after observation I'm ready to concede that the head might LOOK a little small due to the huge hair and crown framing it so tightly but it IS not, but I just happen to believe she is COMPLETELY WRONG about the 5 heads tall thing and I cannot let it go!! O_o; How can the WHOLE ART UNIVERSE be wrong thinking bodies are 7-8 heads tall, except for her?!

I don't care that she's drawing her characters 5 heads tall, it's her thing, but she shouldn't go around and try to convince people that everyone should draw like her!!! Thank goodness I have better confidence in my art and knowledge of proportions, I can't imagine what effect that kind of comment would have on someone who might take her word for it!

I just.... GAH, is it wrong for thinking she's completely insane?! O_o; At this point, it's not just an opinion, she REFUSES to see what everyone else sees!! It's kinda pathetic!

Please... someone... anyone... tell me you agree with me? I need some peer approval here O_o;;;;; Or then send me back to my hole with a kick in the ass and make me apologize to her, but please say something?!

Oh, and I am soooo not replying to her PM, even though making enemies is also the last thing I want, I'm afraid I would unwillingly say hurtful things to her.

I met some strange people on Gaia........ A guy with "poop" in his username. He mentions poop regularly and he seems to be completely clueless when it comes to Gaia and the Internet in general... I just don't get how someone can be so... weird and clueless O_o; If he mentions poop, I guess that makes him really young... but then young people are supposed to be good with internet and new technology... right? But according to the ToS, you're supposed to be at least 13 to be on Gaia... So he can't be THAT young...? O_o; I thought maybe he was super old since he didn't even know how to post in a forum, but then why would he bring up poop all the time?? o_o; There's a promotion going on right now on Gaia. A chest appears in your aquarium and if you want to open it and get a prize, you need to buy a key. Of course the key disappears from your inventory once you've used it, it's basic stuff... but he was like "Hey, let me borrow your key, I'll use it then give it back to you!".......... I really don't think he's faking it, he's sooooooo full of really basic questions.... like "hey, I bought my panda for just 6k last year, how come it's worth over 15k now?!"................. He's one weird fellow. Doesn't understand anything to anything. Maybe he's "challenged"...........?

And a gal who wants me to draw bigger chins and bigger heads.................... She INSISTS that people are in fact 5-7 heads tall (and not 7-8 heads tall like everyone else claims, IN SPITE OF PROOF WITH REAL PICTURES OF REAL PEOPLE) and that my chins need to be longer and pointier............................. And when I look at her DA gallery, her drawings are of people with big heads and big pointy chins. So basically, she wants me to draw like her.......... I pointed out that I thought her chins were too big and she called me childish for attacking her art. Am I completely retarded or it's her? O_o; GEEZ.

Also... why the hell am I so clueless when it comes to new anime/manga/trends?? D: I feel so left out..... What the hell is Hetalia, when did it become popular? Can someone link me to the OP please?? Tried to looks for it on YouTube, but there is too much fan made parodies to filter, couldn't find anything serious by myself :|

What are other popular animes/mangas nowadays? Passed Deathnote, it's a black hole for me. I just feel so... old and left out D: *drivels*

Well... I've been patient, I've waited a few days before saying anything... but where is my Slanted Mind feedback?? D: Maybe people are just not done reading... But this is making me really upset. All that work for nothing? I've got 0 email so far, 0 guestbook message, 0 LJ community comment. No feedback whatsoever, not even a "busy right now, I'll read it later". And here I thought I was gonna make people happy... :( Maybe the email I sent via notifylist didn't get through...? Maybe I'll send it again...

PS: I am not pointing fingers at anyone in particular, I'm just wondering what my 1576 notify list members are doing... They can't ALL have abandoned their email address... can they? D:

PS2: I'm having my period, hence emotional instability lol ;_;

This is so frustrating, I'm so discouraged. I received the email listing all the newly open daycare spots at 9:40am this morning. I tried calling the spots that worked for me within the following minute... lines were already busy with other callers! D: I succeeded into getting in touch with potentially ONE open spot... "Potentially", because the daycare lady isn't sure what group of age she's gonna take yet, so maybe Logan isn't even eligible! I'll know next week... if she calls back, I'm in. Otherwise, I'm back to where I started. I bet I got this far only because her opening hours are total crap too! She opens and closes one hour earlier than everyone else, that means I would need to wake up earlier than my usual 5:30am (D: D: D:), go to work early and also leave work early, all in a hurry because the stupid daycare closes too early! Still, getting the spot would be nice... one less thing to stress about... :(

I really wish I could afford to be a stay at home mom, life would suddenly become so easy and so enjoyable... But Hassan would need to at least double his income, and that means living as we are living now (ie: tight budget), so in order to make this both possible and comfortable, he would need to TRIPLE his income... Like that's gonna happen D:

Adult life SUCKS.

The death of Michael Jackson seems so unreal... I can't believe he won't be there anymore when my son hears his first Michael Jackson song! :'( Back when I was 3 years old, I used to dance on Thriller, it was my favourite song! Okay, he looked creepy nowadays, but did it really matter? D:

It's kind of like the death of Sadam Hussein, I can't believe he's not there anymore either, he's ALWAYS been there!!

In person, I keep saying "well, that's life", but today... life is not cool D:

Uh... wait a minute... WHAT?! Twilight is in fact a series of novels?????? .....really? ........................I've always thought it was a TV series. Why am I only learning this now? O_o;

So.... when people say "let's watch Twilight", they actually mean the MOVIE?

I'm so confused D:

I came to the sad conclusion that I must trash almost my whole summer wardrobe :( "Sad", because this is real life, and unlike the lucky What Not to Wear nominees, I don't have 5000$ for shopping for new clothes D:

My whole pre-pregnancy adult life, I have been shopping in "teen" stores. Or at least in stores that are made for women with small breasts. I had no trouble at all finding nice clothes. Now that I'm a mother, my body proportions have changed: my breasts are bigger and my waist is not as well defined as it used to be. It's not a big problem in itself, but all the tops I have for summer are either structure-less/clingy (does not look good with my new waist), empire waist (my chest does not fit over the empire waist anymore), spaghetti straps or even strapless (my nursing bras are very apparent).

I will have to shop in old women's stores D: D: D:

And dang, I just realized I will have to completely renew my bra wardrobe too, with new wide straps supportive bras, no more cute and colourful bras D:

This is sooooooo depressing... I really cannot afford to shop for new clothes right now, not until I go back to work in September and literally double my current income. By then, it will be back to the winter wardrobe, so it's all good, that one still fits me, but this also means that I will have to wear clothes that don't fit me during the whole summer! :( So depressing................ Y_Y

I updated LF, I'm done with Slanted Mind, yay! One project down means I'm up for another one: big Spring Summer clean up! Hassan filmed every room of our house in order to send it to his mother in Pakistan. And whoa, we're PIGS lol!!! I don't mind a little bit of disorder, but on film, it looked way too much. Living in it and looking at it through someone else's eyes are two very different perspectives. We're gonna tidy up the whole house and refilm. No way are we sending that footage to his mother, lol!!!!

Logan has started to sleep fuller nights again, YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY *o* He had been waking up twice every night for the past 1½ month... Every time he wakes up, it's because he's hungry, of course. He started waking up only once per night a few days days ago... and he woke up once last night, but he wasn't even hungry, he just wanted to be in someone's arms, I guess, because he went straight back to sleep in the end and slept until the morning! I hope he'll sleep through the whole night tonight, that sure would be nice *o*

What Not to Wear : I thought I had learnt a lot from that show. Until I saw some "not so secret footage" of myself a few days ago x_x I was wearing a t-shirt I absolutely love, it's bright red (not tomato red, not orange-red, not wine... it's a BEAUTIFUL bright red), it has a nice shape, nice cut, it isn't fitted but I thought the cut accentuated my waist, empire style. WRONG D: I look wiiiiide in it *cries* I will never wear that t-shirt out again :'( The thing is I thought I looked damn fine in that t-shirt! When I look at myself in the mirror, I don't see what I saw in the footage, how weird is that?! D: If I can't trust mirrors, what can I do? Film myself every time I try on new clothes? :( Dang...

Completely random... but wow, I can't believe I drew such amazing comic pages for chapter 11! O_o; I'm impressed with myself, I truly am!! *pats self on the back*

*Looks at recent drawings* ...now I feel like I took a step back... *cries*

Btw, I'm nearly done with fixing the update! ^^ I'm writing a "Making of Slanted Mind" article, it's really fun! I get to tell all my abandoned ideas XD Only now I realize how important it is to get the whole story planned out before actually starting to draw anything... It took me 10 years to fully understand this simple concept... Or maybe I'll say "it took me one project". Yeah, that sounds better! lol

Logan discovered how to make bubbles in his drinking water XP



Hahaha...

Oh, he started teething too, I found a tooth! :D Apparently no pain at all, he's not crying any more than usual, yay!!! Though he's been drooling (eww) and biting (ouch) a lot more than usual lately... Now I know why lol

I broke up the last chapter, so SM has 22 chapters in the end. 2 chapters left to summarize! This is getting exciting!

But I'm starting to really really REALLY regret not posting the script with the original dialogs....................................... ^^;;;;;;;;;;;; Maybe bullet style summaries weren't a good idea in the end....... Maybe I should just fix the script a little (like, translate the few French phrases that made their way in there, check for typos, etc.) provide a "how to read" method and just copy and paste into HTMLDOC!MSWORD...

Dang, I think I'll actually do it...... it's like starting over O_o;; But that would mean remaining so much more true to the SM universe..... DAMMIT DX

Okay, it's decided, I'll do it ¬_¬ Starting tomorrow. I'll still try to meet my deadline (June 24th). It should not take as long writing summaries. (Hopefully.)

The art of changing my mind... lol

GAH.

Okay, so I took a day off 2 days ago, now I'm only one day ahead of schedule XP I'm speaking of SM, of course. I've realized the story is full of holes lolololol But at this point I don't really care, it's a "make up your own explanation" story, you have to work it out yourself lol

A high school friend of mine gave birth a few days ago, I was dying to see pictures of her baby boy, but when I saw the pictures on facebook today... I couldn't comment I thought her baby looked cute, I couldn't even fake it lol ;_; It doesn't matter in the end, a baby grows up and changes and it's not important to be pretty anyway. ( But Logan is prettier LMAO XP ) It's disturbing how all parents think their own baby is the most beautiful of all... Me included XD

She had her baby naturally in a "birth centre", not a hospital. They sent her home with her baby on the same day she gave birth, at 9pm, merely a few hours after the baby was born O_o; I find this highly disturbing... Normally, at the hospital, you cannot leave before 2 days after the birth, physicians and nurses keep making check ups on both the mom and the baby in order to make sure everything is going well, like, that the uterus is taking back its initial shape & place, that the mom has no fever/infection and that the baby is having enough milk and doesn't get dehydrated or has other health issues. Like I said, I find it highly disturbing that she didn't get that much medical attention... I don't know, I just can't imagine myself going back home on the same day, I was barely able to walk or sit down due to intense pain in the crotch area... But I have to admit I did appreciate going back home a lot... Still, I'm not sure I would ever trust a birth centre. It feels way too insecure to me.

Oh yeah baby, I did 3 chapters today ♥ Chapters remaining: only 4! :D I am very excited about getting this done X3 I seriously thought about putting the script up "as is" today, because I feel like the dialogues are so much more fun to read than the summaries, but then I realized the amount of html and formating that would be required and that killed it. LOL!

ladykakata, are you really willing to work on a prose version? You were speaking of August? That would be so awesome, I am soooooooo excited at the thought of sharing the original script with someone lol ;_; Feel free to refuse, I'm not forcing you!

Btw, anyone, what is the plural for "hypothesis"? Maybe I'll just use "theories" instead...? XD;

PS: I finally fell asleep some time between 2 and 3am yesterday... I was so stressed I couldn't even sleep deeply. I woke up at 5 am because of the sun and finally got up at 8 am... luckily I'm at my parents' so I could leave Logan to their good care and nap from 9 to 11am Not what I would call a good night of sleep, but it did the job =_=; I'm hoping for a better night tonight =_=;